Damn I wish I could cry. Like I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I think I’ve held things in for so long that my tear ducts literally don’t work. They literally don’t work. Ironically, it hurts so bad that I can’t cry. It’s like I can feel them in my eyes. I can feel the stress and pain in my heart… Everything is setup for me to have a ballout session, but it just doesn’t happen. I might be able to get one or two tears out, but never enough to get that relieving feeling you get after having a good cry. Man do I have some shit I wanna cry about. I wanna cry so hard… so hard but I can’t. I don’t know if I’m mentally stopping myself or if there’s something physically stopping me. All I know is… I don’t wanna be like this anymore.